|PART 29: Alive
Bra sat in her room, alone, watching TV. Well, the TV was on and
she was looking at it, but she had no idea what show was on. She
finally picked up the remote and turned it off. She flopped on her
bed and let out a sigh, staring at the ceiling, just like she had done
the previous day. She had been grounded for the weekend and school would
reopen in another week. Her life was boring and stupidly complicated.
Just because of one sorry little feeling, her life was turned completely
upside down. She'd had enough pain to last her a lifetime.
She'd ignored her father ever since that day. Her mom was still angry
with her. As for her brother…Trunks didn't say home much.
He was always going out and meeting someone. A girlfriend?
She couldn't work up the energy to care.
Goten, Trunks, and Marron were going out tomorrow. A "just like the
old days" get-together. She knew they would. They'd always
been good friends, and Goten's failed proposal had brought them closer.
She wished she could fit in, but they were 20+ and she was just a teenager.
They hadn't wanted her around when they were younger and they didn't really
want her around now. Marron and Goten had always been semi-welcoming,
but Trunks would always scoff and leave her behind. Still, they were
nice people, her brother, Marron, and…
Dang it, she was trying to forget him! For at least the night.
She looked at a picture next to her bed that made her smile. It was
of her and Pan, a camping trip from not so long ago. She missed her
friend. With Pan gone for the holiday and Trunks, Marron, and Goten
getting so chummy, she had no one to talk to. Pan and her family
weren't coming back until the Sakura viewing, which they always did together.
She absently wondered what Trunks had done that night when she had told
him Marron's secret. Did Marron
know Trunks knew? Had
Trunks told her everything? What was going on with them lately?
She couldn't tell. If something WAS going on, though, she didn't
care. Let them be happy. Let them have their own sweet times.
Maybe someday she'd have her own, too. Someday.
And her mind drifted back to Goten. He was so much trouble!
Why did he stick in her mind? He'd caused her such pain and confusion…and
joy…she was so in love with him…
"Oh, you baka," she cursed herself. "Just forget him!"
But she couldn't. It was all the memories. She was a little
girl and the guy she called "Goten-oniichan" would drop by often to spar
or play or "study" with Trunks. But every time he came, he would
always play with her, or take her flying. He always treated her so
much better than Trunks had…such a nice and easy-going person. That's
when she had started to like him. And like changed to "crush."
But Goten was totally oblivious and would bring so many different girls
out on dates. He would introduce them to her brother, offer to hook
Trunks up. And she would get so jealous, pout, snort, glare, or even
ignore him. But Goten would never realize what was going on.
She was just a little girl, just Trunks' little sister.
And now her crush changed into something richer, deeper, that thing they
call "love," a pure feeling that came straight from her heart. Although
she's dated dozens of guys in her life, she's never had that kind of feeling
that she's experiencing for Goten. She's grown now, and she wanted
Goten to see that. She wanted Goten to look at her and realize that
she's a young woman, a young woman that he could love, but he just didn't.
Time and situation were against her. She half-suspected Dende of
playing some sort of cruel joke on her. She needed more support,
but Marron and her brother were the only people she could count on.
She switched off the lamp in her room and wrapped herself in her comforter,
trying to sleep.
She wanted to forget him, for just one night.
Why wouldn't it work?